I miss you so much...

Sounds creepy maybe, but I've been wanting a sign from you so bad.  It's a shame (or is it?) that I turn every single possible 'coincidence' in my life into your intervention?!  I miss your friends... I miss talking about you, I miss Kari, Lindsay, April, Jenn, Frank.  I'm sick of this shit!  I just want to talk to you and tell you I'm sorry we fought the last time.  I've replayed it so many times in my mind - I'm making myself crazy...I talked to a kind of 'objective party' and they said that it was, "good we finally got there," referring to our knock-down-drag-out we had the last time we were together.  I don't know that I'm totally on board, but I see her point and that's what sisters (real sisters) do.  We had just never gone there...it was a real sweet relationship, Pol.  I adored (adore_ you with all my heart.  I hope you know that......I love you