This is a place to celebrate the life of Polly Tolonen. A young woman who lived her life with beauty, grace, talent and boundless energy. May she continue to inspire us and live in our hearts and memories forever.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Merry Christmas Polly

Was looking at an old hard drive and found these pictures of Polly. Made me so happy at first to see her again, and then so sad because I miss her so much. I love the one of her at the beach. We used to have the bonfires with all of our close friends every month or so. Such good memories.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I think about you all the time.... Have really been missing you a lot lately. You'll never believe that Eavan just turned 10 and Nick is now 18. I was looking through pictures to find good ones of Nick for his senior yearbook ad and it dawned on me that you never got to see him with his braces off. I hope and pray that you're able to see them grow up from where you are... such awesome kids, I'm so lucky.

There are tons of turtles all in and around the lake where I run. Today the thought occurred to me that maybe I should bring Goobs down here and let him be free - is there such a thing as a turtle being too domesticated to live in the wild? He probably wouldn't get his cottage cheese out there so maybe it's not such a good idea. He's just been so active lately in his aquarium - I told Eavan to let him out and run around her room tomorrow while she's at school.

So much I want to catch you up on - hopefully you already know about everything... if so you probably know that I haven't been the same since you left. I miss the old me but I miss you more...

Love you

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Still on my mind so much..

Really have been missing you lately Polly. Has anyone else had Polly flowing through their hearts and minds? My cell phone lost power along with my friend at the same time even though they had a full charge. It was odd, and then of course we both said Polly. I'd like to think so.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

missing you

What I wouldn't give to spend two or three hours on the phone with you confessing all my recent misadventures and hearing all about yours. I don't think I ever truly understood or appreciated our love and level of companionship. Only now that I'm left to my own devices do I fully realize what a blessing you were in my life. There was never a better friend than you. I miss you all the time.


Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Happy Birthday

Polly, I know you can see all of us down here missing you so badly. Happy Birthday to you today. I think of you all the time.
Thought I would post a picture you took of yourself when I wasn't looking. It was great to find this later on my camera.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Polly and I met at Grand Valley State University. Golly we have some Great stories. In March of 2007 I came out to LA for a visit. And of course more great stories and joys of reminiscing. I am so glad I was able to spend that time with Pols. I too, cannot delete her phone numbers or email addresses. I pass through your name and smile as a tear chases down my cheek in happiness, in hopes you are smiling back at me. I will be attending the AOPi garden dedication this May. Pols I miss you so much. xoxoxoxo Friends Forever, Forever you are our Angel.

Friday, April 3, 2009


Hello everyone.
As Polly's Birthday is nearing this May, I thought it would be amazing if we could collect any videos of Polly, pictures, and maybe even some new memories to share with each other. I have been thinking about Polly so much lately and dreading the date that I got the phone call that she was no longer with us. I really have some anxiety about this date so I would like to overpower it with the day of her amazing birth. I want to focus on how much we laughed with Polly, how much we learned from her and how much we all loved her. Please start posting and if you need any help with blogger, putting up videos or images, let me know.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

I miss you so much...

Sounds creepy maybe, but I've been wanting a sign from you so bad.  It's a shame (or is it?) that I turn every single possible 'coincidence' in my life into your intervention?!  I miss your friends... I miss talking about you, I miss Kari, Lindsay, April, Jenn, Frank.  I'm sick of this shit!  I just want to talk to you and tell you I'm sorry we fought the last time.  I've replayed it so many times in my mind - I'm making myself crazy...I talked to a kind of 'objective party' and they said that it was, "good we finally got there," referring to our knock-down-drag-out we had the last time we were together.  I don't know that I'm totally on board, but I see her point and that's what sisters (real sisters) do.  We had just never gone was a real sweet relationship, Pol.  I adored (adore_ you with all my heart.  I hope you know that......I love you  

Monday, January 19, 2009


My mind still plays tricks on me when I pick up my cell phone to call you. Like a lot of your friends Polly, I can't seem to bring myself to erase your name and number from my phone. So many calls we've made to one another for advice. So many texts to meet each other out somewhere. I dug my old phone out af a box the other day and found a text on there from you that wanted me to come down to see you at one of your comeday improv shows in L.A.(which I did) and you were amazing as usual. The star of the show as you stole the most applause from the audience when the MC introduced you. In some odd way, reading your text made it seem like you were still down in L.A. doing your thing. I know you must be watching over us. I can feel you when I have these overwhelming Polly moments. A leaf will blow when there isn't a breeze, a feeling of your presence when I'm out on a hike, a memory that makes me smile or laugh to myself. I wanted to write just to say I was thinking about you.
I wanted to write to say I was thinking about all of your friends, (even the ones I've never met) and wondering how they were all doing. I wanted to say I think about Heidi, Chris, Steph, the unborn baby, Mary Beth and Lew, Lindsay, April and Frank every night when I pray. This bond we all have because of you.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Polly and Frank had made an awesome DVD and sent it to us after we got back from our trip to Breckenridge in Feb. of 2006. It was such a special surprise and set to the song ''Under Pressure" by David Bowie. The kids and I have watched it several times and I have tried to download it here without success. If you've ever had that perfect trip or vacation - this was ours. Chris and I agree that it was almost magical in terms of our feelings of happiness and love in being together. I have a special recollection of one afternoon prying Polly away from Frank for a little girl time. We went down a few of our favorite runs - Polly leading the way as she was the map-reader, and then of course it was time for a break. We went to the lodge where we warmed up with some Irish coffees and girl-talk. This was our first time alone and we totally lost ourselves in conversation. I remember looking at her and having the warmest feelings for such a beautiful human being who was not only my blood, but the best friend I've ever had and will ever know.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

A New Year

I don't know what to say Polly.

Happy New Year seems silly. Merry Christmas...? Just as dumb.

Steph and I found out on Christmas that we are having a baby girl, due just before your birthday - May 4th.

We are going to name her Polly Jean.

Never will I stop loving you.