This is a place to celebrate the life of Polly Tolonen. A young woman who lived her life with beauty, grace, talent and boundless energy. May she continue to inspire us and live in our hearts and memories forever.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Happy Birthday


Polly, I know you can see all of us down here missing you so badly. Happy Birthday to you today. I think of you all the time.
Thought I would post a picture you took of yourself when I wasn't looking. It was great to find this later on my camera.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Polly and I met at Grand Valley State University. Golly we have some Great stories. In March of 2007 I came out to LA for a visit. And of course more great stories and joys of reminiscing. I am so glad I was able to spend that time with Pols. I too, cannot delete her phone numbers or email addresses. I pass through your name and smile as a tear chases down my cheek in happiness, in hopes you are smiling back at me. I will be attending the AOPi garden dedication this May. Pols I miss you so much. xoxoxoxo Friends Forever, Forever you are our Angel.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Birthday

Hello everyone.
As Polly's Birthday is nearing this May, I thought it would be amazing if we could collect any videos of Polly, pictures, and maybe even some new memories to share with each other. I have been thinking about Polly so much lately and dreading the date that I got the phone call that she was no longer with us. I really have some anxiety about this date so I would like to overpower it with the day of her amazing birth. I want to focus on how much we laughed with Polly, how much we learned from her and how much we all loved her. Please start posting and if you need any help with blogger, putting up videos or images, let me know.
Kari

Sunday, March 1, 2009

I miss you so much...

Sounds creepy maybe, but I've been wanting a sign from you so bad.  It's a shame (or is it?) that I turn every single possible 'coincidence' in my life into your intervention?!  I miss your friends... I miss talking about you, I miss Kari, Lindsay, April, Jenn, Frank.  I'm sick of this shit!  I just want to talk to you and tell you I'm sorry we fought the last time.  I've replayed it so many times in my mind - I'm making myself crazy...I talked to a kind of 'objective party' and they said that it was, "good we finally got there," referring to our knock-down-drag-out we had the last time we were together.  I don't know that I'm totally on board, but I see her point and that's what sisters (real sisters) do.  We had just never gone there...it was a real sweet relationship, Pol.  I adored (adore_ you with all my heart.  I hope you know that......I love you  

Monday, January 19, 2009

Monday

My mind still plays tricks on me when I pick up my cell phone to call you. Like a lot of your friends Polly, I can't seem to bring myself to erase your name and number from my phone. So many calls we've made to one another for advice. So many texts to meet each other out somewhere. I dug my old phone out af a box the other day and found a text on there from you that wanted me to come down to see you at one of your comeday improv shows in L.A.(which I did) and you were amazing as usual. The star of the show as you stole the most applause from the audience when the MC introduced you. In some odd way, reading your text made it seem like you were still down in L.A. doing your thing. I know you must be watching over us. I can feel you when I have these overwhelming Polly moments. A leaf will blow when there isn't a breeze, a feeling of your presence when I'm out on a hike, a memory that makes me smile or laugh to myself. I wanted to write just to say I was thinking about you.
I wanted to write to say I was thinking about all of your friends, (even the ones I've never met) and wondering how they were all doing. I wanted to say I think about Heidi, Chris, Steph, the unborn baby, Mary Beth and Lew, Lindsay, April and Frank every night when I pray. This bond we all have because of you.

Sunday, January 18, 2009



Polly and Frank had made an awesome DVD and sent it to us after we got back from our trip to Breckenridge in Feb. of 2006. It was such a special surprise and set to the song ''Under Pressure" by David Bowie. The kids and I have watched it several times and I have tried to download it here without success. If you've ever had that perfect trip or vacation - this was ours. Chris and I agree that it was almost magical in terms of our feelings of happiness and love in being together. I have a special recollection of one afternoon prying Polly away from Frank for a little girl time. We went down a few of our favorite runs - Polly leading the way as she was the map-reader, and then of course it was time for a break. We went to the lodge where we warmed up with some Irish coffees and girl-talk. This was our first time alone and we totally lost ourselves in conversation. I remember looking at her and having the warmest feelings for such a beautiful human being who was not only my blood, but the best friend I've ever had and will ever know.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

A New Year

I don't know what to say Polly.

Happy New Year seems silly. Merry Christmas...? Just as dumb.

Steph and I found out on Christmas that we are having a baby girl, due just before your birthday - May 4th.

We are going to name her Polly Jean.

Never will I stop loving you.